Dear God

Woman praying

 

Dear God,

As the new year is unfolding, Your message is becoming very evident to me in that I attract not what I want, but who I am; that if I want to change something in my life, I need to focus on the inner part of myself and You will take care of the outer. I have come to the realization that many places within me need to be healed. The experiences that I have had in the last several years embody the lessons of healing for my own personal and spiritual growth. There are some lessons that I may have ignored or suppressed as well as some past events and people that I may not have forgiven. Today, I ask for Your forgiveness of the lessons that I failed to acknowledge. I ask that you please help me to forgive myself for my oversights and forgive the events and people of my past that may have hurt me intentionally or unintentionally. There is a tremendous amount of inner work that I have done and even more that I need to continue doing to achieve the healing that you want me to experience. Please help me discover those specific areas that need to be healed within me and what might I need to do to bring forth the perfect healing for myself. Please help me look at each and every fear that may hinder my healing straight in the eye and face it with my head held high. For it is in the healing of myself that I will be able to know and love myself better and thus, know all other beings and love them unconditionally. I believe in the power of Your amazing grace for my spiritual, physical, mental and emotional healing, and I thank you very much for it.

Love always,
Me

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Dear God

Dear God,

Thank you for this day. My day begins with You and ends with You. This past week was particularly difficult to endure. But from You, I found the strength to surrender many of my cares. I did this because I know that You will not fail me. There are no mistakes, accidents or coincidences…only divine appointments. I know that with each experience and encounter that You bring forth in my life, there is a lesson that You want me to learn. A lesson that will allow me to serve You in more ways than I can think of. A lesson that will only strengthen and change me. A lesson that will make my life more purposeful and worth my every breath.

I cannot explain why I find myself constantly fighting with the Universe and the things that are completely out of my control. My need to control only worsens my internal conflict. Why do I do this knowing that I will only hurt myself more? Please forgive me for this and help me forgive myself for my past mistakes. Even though I don’t fully understand and know all the answers, help me to accept things just the way they are. You know what is best for me and You will give me far better than I can even imagine when I leave my cares, worries and problems with You. Please teach me to let go of these things quickly and easily, especially the “if onlys” and “whys”.

When I awaken in the middle of the night about my cares, I am assured that I can rely on You for my source of comfort. In the midst of all the tossing and turning at night, many times You help me decipher and resolve my problems or You reveal a divine sign. Please help me continue to trust You wholeheartedly and relinquish my deeply-ingrained fears that are sometimes so downright scary to deal with. Please help me consider and look forward to the blessings that You have in store for me – those blessings that I may consider problems right now but these very well may be opportunities in disguise.

The next several nights are very special and will be the most powerful. As I sit in Your remembrance during these nights, for each tear that streams down my face, there will be a prayer. I ask for forgiveness not only for myself but also for all my loved ones as well as my brothers and sisters in this world. Please help us all forgive each other and let go of the bitterness and resentments that we have held onto from our past experiences. Please heal each one and help us unite with each other so that we may live with peace, love and harmony in our hearts for each other. Your grace and glory are everlasting, and the way that You work in our lives is truly enlightening. Let us not stray from the right path and if we do, please help us return quickly back to You. May we all be directed by Your light that guides us to the path of forgiveness, love and righteousness.

Thank you for blessing us all.

Love always,
Me

Dear God

Dear God,

Thank you for this day. Tomorrow is not promised and I seem to repeatedly forget this. There are a million unanswered questions in my heart about tomorrow and a void is left where those answers belong. I am easily tempted to fill that void with my frustration and anger. On those days that are so painful to walk through, I need to remember that there is a lesson in each experience that You offer me – the lessons that teach me to be more faithful to You. I wish to follow Your lead but very often, during my agonizing trials and tests of faith, I become oblivious of Your genuinely loving whispers and lose hope; that is when I want to seek you the most. Oh, how I forget that You are the Most High, the Almighty – the One whose love can fill the void in my heart. It is during these distressful times that my fears become bigger than my faith — when the light seems to keep getting further out of reach and all I want to do is give up. But then I remember that it is also during these times that when I choose to step outside of my circumstances, I find myself surrendering all of my worries, doubts and fears to You. When I just let it be and return to You, something truly miraculous happens. It is in this void that I find Your grace and Your divine utterance simply reminds me that this precious grace is enough, that Your love and guidance is enough for me to keep striving forward. You continue to work in my life to fill my emptiness so that every moment of my every day is meaningful. My journey remains blessed with Your daily miracles and I find myself wanting to go on, believing in Your miracles and Your way.

Please be present in my heart all the way through. For everything in my life, I thank you!

Love always,
Me

Thoughtful Thursday: A Leap of Faith

In every facet of my life, I encounter fear. It gets the best of me.

As of late, I have been paralyzed with the fear of losing a dear friendship. This is a profoundly divine friendship with my big brother whom I visited daily and with whom I exchanged many thought-provoking conversations in the recent past. These everyday exchanges became somewhat of a normal routine for me and sometimes the only moments of solace that I would actually get to experience. Last month, I chose to leave the company for which we both worked. The thought of not being able to see my brother day after day was beyond disturbing but it was a truth that sooner or later I would need to accept. I feared that our friendship would soon dissipate if I did not do everything in my control to nurture it.

Control. This can get the best of me, too.

In my desire to control and maintain an atmosphere of our friendship similar to what it was like prior to my parting, I became irritated and perturbed when my methods of trying to connect with my brother failed.  As a result, I began to doubt my trust in him. My faith wavered when I noticed that our friendship was not continuing the way I would have hoped for it to. In the very few conversations I had with him over the last several weeks, I acted out of fear and anger as I sensed that he did not view the need for growing our friendship through my lens. And there I was, too weak and weary to even focus on my faith in God that he would make things right.

Last Sunday when my brother and I finally connected on the phone, he asked me to take what I would call a gigantic leap of faith – a leap that would mean fully accepting, believing and trusting that he cares about me and our friendship without having to demonstrate or prove it constantly. And that everything will all fall into its own place if there is faith. All I could think was this:

He was asking for too much. And NO way was I going to do that. How could I carry on patiently without knowing that he was okay? How could I be okay with not hearing from him daily when that is what I was accustomed to for so long? 

This was going to be a difficult leap and one that was way out of my comfort zone. Not knowing daily how my brother was doing or what was troubling him and not hearing his voice would require a tremendous amount of patience and courage on my part. I was just not ready for that leap; I was not ready to let go. As always, he was very considerate and did not impose any of his notions upon me. He gave me some time to think about whether or not I can take this leap. And he would still be content if I just could not.

At that point, I was in a state of utter confusion and deep introspection. Though I absolutely knew that taking this leap was the best course of action for the growth of our friendship, I questioned any faith that I had in myself. Did I value and love this friendship enough to take such a huge leap? Was there another life lesson to be learned from taking this leap? I could only pray to God diligently and ask him to lead my way.

Over the last few days as I pondered the choice to take the leap or not, I happened to attend one of the most unique and inspirational sessions presented by Cherie Cross on accepting and appreciating human differences as well as our own humanness. The key messages that I learned from this particular session were that people are not out to get you, that you should express your love to the people in your life and believe that they are doing the best with what they can and finally, that what they do or don’t do is NOT PERSONAL; it’s just their style!

Cherie ended the session with a very touching excerpt from Og Mandino’s book called The Greatest Salesman in the World:

I will greet this day with love in my heart.

For this is the greatest secret of success in all ventures. Muscle can split a shield and even destroy life but only the unseen power of love can open the hearts of men and until I master this art I will remain no more than a peddler in the market place. I will make love my greatest weapon and none on whom I call can defend against its force.

My reasoning they may counter; my speech they may distrust; my apparel they may disapprove; my face they may reject and even my bargains may cause them suspicion; yet my love will melt all hearts liken to the sun whose rays soften the coldest clay.

I will greet this day with love in my heart.

And how will I act? I will love all manners of men for each has qualities to be admired even though they be hidden. With love I will tear down the wall of suspicion and hate which they have built around their hearts and in its place will I build bridges so that my love may enter their souls.

I will greet this day with love in my heart.

And how will I confront each whom I meet? In only one way. In silence and to myself I will address him and say I Love You. Though spoken in silence these words will shine in my eyes, unwrinkle my brow, bring a smile to my lips and echo in my voice; and his heart will be opened. And who is there who will say nay to my goods when his heart feels my love?

I will greet this day with love, and I will suc­ceed.

Interestingly enough, just when Cherie stated the last line of this excerpt, I received a text message from my brother stating “I have faith that you will make it work.” I could not stop the tears from rolling down my cheeks. There are no coincidences in life, but rather signs that God has a way of revealing in the right place and at the right time, in His own time. My only thoughts at that moment were that I must let go of the fear that I have about our precious friendship dissolving and surrender to God’s love.

Love is a four-letter word but one so powerful that when offered with the goodness of your heart, it can change the world. I must act out of love for my brother and not in anger, desperation or a need to be right. It is NOT important for me to be right, but rather to get it right – to shower unconditional love in this friendship that will take it a long way, to be understanding of situations that warrant it, to refrain from taking his actions or inactions personally, to be forgiving when mistakes are made or when plans change and to completely trust him knowing that although he may not be able tend to my desires continually, that he really DOES care.

I presume that God is calling me to jump with all my heart and all my strength, and to have faith that He is already there on the other side waiting to catch me; that He will come through for me in the end.

So I eagerly wait to tell my brother this: “I, too, have faith that I will make it work.”