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Sometimes I want to live a life of solitude and escape from my present surroundings but fear how much pain that would cause my loved ones.

Sometimes I want to express the love in my heart but I get so entangled with the perfection of expressing it that I lose touch with it.

Sometimes I want reveal the person that I truly am and how I really feel but worry about failing to meet the expectations of others.

Sometimes I have conversations with a friend confiding things I never imagined to and through the conversations acquire a very different perspective of life.

Sometimes I need to improve my patience and remember that things will happen when they are supposed to happen.

Sometimes I enjoy re-reading the daily spiritual devotions, night after night because they make me a stronger and more loving person.

Sometimes I want to hide myself in the corner of my closet and cry my heart out.

Sometimes I want a comforting hug because then I know that no matter what happens, everything will really be okay.

Sometimes I want to sing to remember all the beautiful memories of my lifetime.

Sometimes I have very good intentions, but fall quite short.

Sometimes I am battling so hard with self-doubt that these feelings cloud my vision and I have to constantly remind myself to refocus on my purpose in life.

Sometimes I want to take care of me and do it all.

Sometimes I spend the entire day contemplating on life’s most perplexing questions.

Sometimes I think too hard and lose myself in grave confusion.

Sometimes I disengage myself from everyone and everything in life only to regroup myself emotionally so that I can end up in a better place.

Sometimes I reminisce about the sweet memories of my younger years and want to start my life over again.

Sometimes I get teary eyed when my daughter reaches a milestone because she is one step closer to becoming a more independent girl.

Sometimes I love that my husband can be so spontaneous and fulfill the little things when I least expect him to.

Sometimes I am shocked with my own mood swings and really wish that I would think before I act which would make some people very happy.

Sometimes I try really hard to make the best out of my relationships with my family members but can’t openly express my feelings to them.

Sometimes I terribly miss my childhood best friend and wish she were close by.

Sometimes when I face the hard truths of life, I discover myself for who I really am and my ever-changing personality.

Sometimes I can be a strong-willed woman and find the strength to push through and conquer whatever undertaking that has left me feeling defeated.

Sometimes I can’t please others just because I want to be me.

Sometimes I have to write to let it all out.

Sometimes I forget that life is not and will not be perfect even when you plan it closely.

Sometimes I wonder when I become the woman I want to be, will I really be surrounded by peace and happiness with the life I’ve chosen to lead?

I spoke with a friend briefly today on staying young at heart. Although I’ll be one year down soon and quickly approaching my inevitable 40, I want to merely affirm what I believe one can do to stay youthful regardless of their age. These positive statements will forever remind me and others that “you are never too old.”  

Y – YOU – only you can take care of you – believe in yourself, love your life, rejuvenate your mind, body and soul — treat yourself with a snack, your favorite drink or an outing, do what you love and do it with full commitment, watch a movie, meditate, listen to your inner being and satisfy yourself.

O – OPEN your heart to all the joys of life — embrace your life and the lives of people that surround you…live well, laugh often and love always.

U – UNLEASH your greatness by overcoming fears and negativity — wisdom is achieved with a clear and positive mind. Release the thoughts that hold you back and “talk it out” when you need to.

N – NO pain, no gain — life is full of obstacles that we must conquer in order to gain a better understanding of our purpose in life. You wouldn’t know whether you could do something if you never did it. The failures you face will transform and perfect your life.

G – GET yourself in shape and in good health one step at a time even if it is difficult when you are starting out; you will get tremendous energy by being fit.

Your “young” future is in your hands!

After three weeks of daring adventure, I can safely say that I’ve returned with a new ME! My recent trip to my homeland (Karachi, Pakistan) was quite a risky undertaking but what I have learned and gained during that time made the entire trip worthwhile – from each and every encounter to the family bonding to the spirit of human kindness.

2011 will hold an abundance of surprises for me and I’m so ready for them! As I walked in to the New Year on the night of my arrival from Karachi, I knew that this year was going to be full of new beginnings. Instead of “bringing the baggage” with me, I will stay focused in the here and the now, my happiness and my family’s joys. I will enjoy all of my talents to the fullest that I have abandoned in the past. I will allow myself the R & R that I deserve. I consider myself beyond lucky to be in a profession that I am so passionate about and continue to work with such amazing people. I am already making the right choices that are bringing the right results. And most of all, I feel absolutely great!

The transformation of me into a unique individual, an even more courageous woman is remarkably refreshing. I am so excited to see where I will be in a year from now. There is a lot to accomplish and many more opportunistic challenges ahead with rewarding experiences that I anxiously await. The New Year is about the evolution of me and I owe a great deal of gratitude to a very dear friend for showing me the way, the light.

Today, I thank God for each and every moment of happiness that I have been greeted with along my journey. May the New Year bring my family and friends the peace and prosperity that they desire.